Your perspective really changes your reality. I was raised by one of the most optimistic humans ever,  my mother has always seen the good in events. This has not been a natural feeling for me.  Your perspective is always going to be your Truth. You can choose your perspective on situations and opportunities. 

One of the hardest things to sort out in my life has been the passing of my father. Not just losing my Dad which is enough, but losing him to a short 11 month battle with cancer.  In that 11 months I saw him totally fade away.  He retreated inward. I saw it not only steal his life, but take away the things that he loved one by one. I watched his light fade out. This has been what I think about more than anything.

My perspective has continued to shift on this. From this anger I felt toward the universe, god, or whatever is in control, to gut wrenching fear of having to experience the same thing one day. It wasn’t until a few years later when I was injured did the message come through loud and clear.  I was the one currently trapped in this malfunctioning machine, this machine I had taken for granted throughout my entire life. 


I used to have such dread and fear about this. Recently, this perspective has shifted again. The positive approach I choose is through this awareness.

If the way I die is by losing control of my machine, feeling trapped, and feeling my fire for life extinguish, then I AM DAMN SURE MAKING THE RIDE WORTH IT.

I am leaving no room for should haves, would haves, or dreaming about more time. I want to know in my soul that I lived my life to the fullest.

Everyday when I wake up, I am reminded we have more to do. NOT DEAD YET.

April 24, 2023